Archive for December, 2009

Izzy

Monday, December 21st, 2009

Today I received news of the passing of Izzy, the cat I spent my teenage years growing up with. He made it to seventeen years old, and we first got him when I was thirteen, shortly after the death of Sundance. I decided in my bereft innocence that I wanted a replacement that looked just like him, and thus Izzy was chosen for his similar orange and white complexion.

Izzy turned out to be very little like Sundance. From kittenhood he was the grumpiest cat I’ve known, fiercely independent, extremely defensive and only ever playing or showing love on his own terms. He would attack frequently and heaven help you if you tried cradling him upside down (or holding him at all for more than brief periods of time). He was always such an old curmudgeon, and it was unusual that his body had to grow into his personality.

He was never the smartest cat, either. He used to charge at the other cat he saw in the mirror, for instance. It would sound like the galloping of a tiny horse as he got up speed and rammed that other cat with his head, causing the mirror to reverberate throughout the entire house. I think he grew out of that behaviour after a year or so, but I liked to joke that the damage was done by that point.

He was an indoor cat, and hated it. My parents used to tell me that indoor cats grew disinterested with the outside world, but I knew that was never the case for Izzy. He would constantly make mad dashes for freedom whenever a door was left open or if he felt he could claw his way through a screen (which he managed several times). Being the less-brainy type I described, though, he would always stop at the first flower he encountered in order to sniff it, giving us ample opportunity to retrieve him. There were only a few times he ever made it out unnoticed for any significant period of time, and he never went far. One evening he got out and the next morning my parents found him chasing after a terrified neighbourhood cat across our backyard.

We used to try taking him to my parents’ cottage, and that never went well: two hours of him sitting in his cat-carrier, meowing plaintively the entire trip. A lesser cat would have tired out or just given up five or ten minutes into the trip, but he would never stop for the entire two hour journey, constantly changing up his voice and pattern so we had no chance to grow accustomed to it.

He loved being at the cottage, though, exploring its nooks and crannies, and it was one of the places he would be most affectionate. I slept in the top half of a bunk-bed, and he would spend about ten minutes trying to figure out how to climb the ladder unsuccessfully until I finally helped him up, and he would sleep in the bed with me.

One story I like to tell is how I was napping on the couch at the cottage one time, when he suddenly jumped up on my chest and started nuzzling me. I was surprised by the unusual affection he was showing as I pulled myself out of my sleepy haze. I wrenched my eyes open only to have my gaze returned by a wide-eyed, terrified rodent that was barely centimetres from my face. Naturally I screamed like a little girl as my skeleton tried to leap outside the rest of my body, sending the two of them careening across the room. My dad heard this from the balcony where he was reading the newspaper, and as he opened the screen door all we heard was a furious galloping noise, and all we saw was a dark blur as the rodent darted out onto the porch and to freedom. My dad managed to slam the screen door shut just in the way of the cat that was hurtling after it in pursuit, separating the two.

After I went away to university I saw him a lot less, and my allergies made it difficult to spend huge amounts of time with him. He eventually moved in with my aunt, who took excellent care of him, and in his later years discovered other quirky things about him (such as one of his favourite foods being corn on the cob). I like to think he calmed down a lot in his elder years, although every time I visited he would be curmudgeonly as ever.

The last few months he apparently was having a harder time of things. My aunt had to feed him with a syringe and inject him with medications regularly. He seemed to improve recently and was even eating and enjoying food on his own, when he was hit with some kind of clot-related affliction that left him terribly weak and upset (my aunt thinks it was a stroke, but the vet isn’t sure). There was no reasonable choice other than to put him down and end his suffering at that point. I was woken up by the call from my parents this morning, and got the chance to talk to my aunt about it a little later on. It took a few hours for it to sink for me and I’ve been going back and forth between being shell-shocked and morose.

We are going to have him cremated, and bury his ashes up at the cottage, same as we did for Sundance over seventeen years ago. I like to think it’s where he would have chosen, if he could.

I knew about his declining health, and that it was unlikely I would get to see him before he died. I had still hoped he might make it through until March or so, when I have a wedding to attend on the east coast and might have been able to do a brief layover to see him in Toronto. I suppose it wasn’t meant to be, though. I am sad to have missed a final opportunity to see him, but seventeen years is a long life for any cat, and his was a good one, filled with people that loved and took care of him.

The brief time I visited back in 2008 and got to see him at the cottage, he chose this spot underneath an island table in the kitchen as the best location to keep an eye on foot traffic:

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… of course, his vigilance had its limits.

So long, Izzy. I will miss you.

Dan.

Surviving the Dumbass Decade

Saturday, December 19th, 2009

Today is the milestone day, turning the big three-oh. I am spending it in my housecoat at home, and then quite possibly later on going to someone else’s birthday party as well as a reunion party for the Cannibal cast.

I’m kind of caught between wanting to downplay the morbid significance of the occasion and embracing the landmark that it is. I don’t feel remarkably older, and most people are spinning the positive side of it… I think my favourite comment I’ve received over the Internet is from improv legend Joe Bill, who I’m not especially close to but I’ve taken several classes with and was kind enough to drop me a note saying “congrats on surviving the Dumbass Decade”.

The theme for this week was, coincidentally, “survival”… I had a stomach bug early on which took a lot out of me, and then got passed on to my girlfriend and took even more out of her, so much so that I had to take her to the E.R. on Wednesday, causing us to miss both the holiday party at Unexpected Productions (which I was totally psyched for) and a holiday show that our friends had set aside an extra Wednesday performance just so those of us with heavy schedules could make it. We are both much better now, but it took a pretty significant toll.

Not so fortunate, however, is my poor laptop, a MacBook Pro that I co-purchased with my then-employer back in 2007. It has been having trouble playing DVDs since, well, forever. I got the DVD drive replaced several months ago but surprisingly the troubles quickly came back. Still under AppleCare, I took it back a second time when I had a DVD that I could consistently reproduce the problem on within the first ten seconds of it playing. I left the DVD with them while they ordered and replaced the drive for a second time, and when I returned I thankfully had the foresight to try it out in the store, only to confirm that replacing the DVD drive hadn’t fixed the problem.

I then spent about an hour in the store with their technician, who suspected it was a problem with the memory and was trying out various configuration of memory in the device. At the end he concluded it wasn’t in fact the memory but the logic board, which meant ordering yet another part to be replaced. I left the DVD with them again, and when I got the call and returned for a third time I was incredibly frustrated to try the DVD only to find it still crashing within the first ten seconds.

I explained to them that my issue wasn’t that they were having difficulty fixing this problem so much as each time they called me and said it was fixed I returned only to try it out myself and find out that replacing the part hadn’t fixed anything, and if they had so much as tried the DVD themselves (which is why I had left it with them) then they could have saved me a trip to Bellevue Square which, at Christmas-time, isn’t exactly a holiday.

After admitting that they had dropped the ball and didn’t know exactly what was wrong with my computer they (finally) decided to replace it, so the good news is that I will be getting a brand new MacBook Pro with even slightly better specs than the one I have right now. The bad news is that I might not be receiving it in time for my next scheduled trip to San Jose. I received a call from the manager today and as penance for their errors and putting me in a bind he’s going to cover new AppleCare on my machine and throw in a backup drive as well, so at least that’s good.

The rest of the week has been ok, illness notwithstanding. My Theatresports team won last Friday by a single point against a very formidable team, although I think they did better narrative work than we did. Unfortunately we didn’t come back yesterday because the regular teams were usurped by special teams celebrating the departure of one of our ensemble members. We’re supposed to come back again, but with the Christmas holiday and then the new year frankly I don’t know how that’s going down.

On Thursday I was treated to a surprise birthday party that I knew about in advance, on account of the E.R. visit on Wednesday and scepticism as to whether or not it would still be happening. It was really nice to see people there from all walks of my life, and I am grateful to everyone who made it out to it.

It feels weird having left my twenties behind. They had their ups and their downs and in many ways were very successful and in other ways not so much… I am sad for the failures that were most profound, the wasted days and missed opportunities, and feel a strange sense of mourning for the closing of a chapter that I am no longer writing but instead has been written, and knowledge that the last chances to make any alterations to it have finally slipped away.

But then, there is every reason to believe that thirty will be the best year of them all so far, so I shall be happy. After all, having written the past is a small price to pay to get to write the future.

Dan.

Knee-deep in nostalgia

Friday, December 11th, 2009

My pages of Night Zero are out! I am positively tickled by them, in particular how I am left begging my associates to kill me on the page immediately following their callous and lethal betrayal of me. (I was given a summary of each shot we were taking, but didn’t fully comprehend just how spectacularly undignified my character’s end would be.)

I went to San José for two days last week on business. It was a pretty productive trip, although we have an intense road map ahead of us. My return to Redmond was graced with my new work computer finally arriving: a beautiful 27″ quad-core iMac (with a secondary 24″ cinema display). The story behind these computers is that they were introduced a couple of months back as the latest-and-greatest iMac entries, but in doing so they killed the 24″ model line which I had been using at my previous job, leaving me the rather undesirable options of either going down to 21″ or up to 27″. If I wanted the quad-core, though, there was no choice but to get the 27″ model. Which means I now nearly have to strain my neck in order to read the time in the menu bar. Man, is it beautiful though, especially with Parallels technology that lets me run my Mac on one screen and Windows simultaneously on the other.

Turning thirty has been on my mind as of late. My birthday is barely a week away, and I can feel it creeping up alongside the various holiday business that otherwise occupies my free time. I wouldn’t exactly say it’s been bothering me a whole lot, but it’s hard for me to ignore the milestone, no matter how contrived it may be.

My parents sent me a very nice care package to celebrate which had me wading knee-deep in nostalgia. Among its contents were an outlandishly Canadian tuque and mittens, a block of 6-year-old Balderson cheddar, Mennonite salami from the St. Jacobs’ Farmers Market, President’s Choice white cheddar macaroni and cheese, and perhaps most interesting a wall calendar of various gorgeous shots of Ontario, including places like Webster Falls that I used to go to back in university.

Tonight I return to Theatresports with my team that won last week. It’s been terribly hard to get cast in the show with all of the new apprentices and my general dislike of manually setting up teams, so it was a relief to win last week and get a chance to play a second time. There is also talk of returning to the randomized teams one night a week, which would make me very happy. Next week regular Theatresports is being preempted by a special show, so it doesn’t really make a difference if my team wins or loses tonight.

The temperature has been below freezing all week. It mercifully hasn’t rained and as such the city remains functional, but there’s talk of it snowing tomorrow in which case I might as well batten down the hatches and hunker down until spring arrives, as there’ll be no hope of going anywhere or doing anything until it does.

Dan.