Posts Tagged ‘sadness’

Audrey Junior

Sunday, May 23rd, 2010

Two weeks ago this past Saturday evening I was in my car, heading into Seattle for Theatresports. I pulled out of my condo’s parking lot and behind an SUV at the traffic light, when I suddenly got rear-ended by a Volkswagen Jetta going about 30 MPH, sending my car hurtling forward into the back of the SUV.

Nobody was seriously injured, thankfully… I suffered some minor whiplash but that seemed to be about the extent of it. A cop happened to pull up within about a minute or so of the collision, so we didn’t even have to call 9-1-1. Driving the car behind me was a seventeen year old girl, who immediately confessed to not paying attention to the road (she was trying to adjust her floormat) and was tearfully apologetic. Her car needed to be towed away… mine was drivable back into my parking lot, but barely. (The SUV didn’t suffer any visibly significant damage.)

Audrey 2 Remains Audrey 2 Remains 2

There was no question of who was at fault, and her insurance accepted responsibility without a fuss. Monday I took it to an auto body shop to have the damage estimated and was provided with a rental car by the insurance. There was a good question as to whether the insurance would pay for repairs or write it off as a total loss, but when the estimate came back at over $9,000 I thought they would do it, since my car’s blue-book value was at least a third higher than that. So I was extremely surprised when the insurance called and told me that they were writing it off, and offered to pay me the full amount it was worth… I suppose with the engine still working and most of the damage to the exterior enough of it was salvageable to make it more cost effective to junk it.

With that, I was forced to say goodbye to my dear Audrey Two, purchased when I first moved to Washington back in 2005 and faithful servant for the past five years.

It took until the middle of this past week to get to that stage, and I was suddenly put on the spot to purchase a new car before my rental expired on Saturday. My instinct was to just purchase another Corolla since I didn’t really have time to explore all of my options, but after talking with my parents I also test drove the Hyundai Elantra, which was actually quite a nice car and I might have even purchased one had things been slightly different.

I didn’t have much success negotiating with dealers in person, so I wound up discovering TrueCar.com, which was able to give me a good summary of the way prices range between dealer cost and sticker price in my area, and even quote me on a better-than-average price with a specific dealer. So I wound up purchasing a new Corolla LE, which I have named Audrey Junior:

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It cost me about $5K more on top of the insurance settlement. I wish I could be happier about my purchase, but before long I discovered that a good number of features that were in the 2005 LE had been removed from the 2010 LE, including the variable adjuster for the intermittent wiper blades, and general quality of the driver’s compartment and console such as the wood-grain trim and several of the storage compartments. So while on the one hand I guess I can’t complain for upgrading to a brand-new car for only $5 thousand, I miss my old car quite a bit.

Dan.

Under the heat lamp

Tuesday, January 12th, 2010

Happy 2010, everyone!

The past few weeks have been filled with adventure and mayhem. I surprised my parents by visiting them on their vacation in Sanibel Island, Florida. Elizabeth came with, and we spent eight days in the sun, six of which were the coldest on record for that region in decades. Which is to say that we spent most of the vacation in 50-degree weather rather than the 80-degree we were expecting, barely any warmer than it was in Seattle.

That had me bummed out considerably as it was an expensive trip (I’d even dropped a little bit extra to rent a convertible that saw almost no top-down use), but it was still nice to get away and relax, as well as see my family. The first two days were quite nice and we still managed to get in a respectable amount of biking and swimming, and at least it was sunny so I could get my vitamin D from somewhere other than an oral supplement.

On the list of curiosities was the Captiva Crab Races, where a few dozen people gambled on their hermit crabs to see which would reach the outer edge of the table first:

Crab Races

I named mine Humphrey and I’m pretty sure he died under the heat lamp on the table before the first race even began.

I’ve had a week or so to adjust back to home life. The construction workers have finally reached my building, and they have demolished the siding with zeal and gusto, and made working from home a challenging prospect. I had prepared for the opportunity to run more cables outside once they removed the siding, but after speaking to the construction manager I now know how to enter the crawl space beneath my condo from the storage locker… it seems the cable company will be rewiring my existing DIY-job for me in the next couple of weeks, so if I tag along when the contractor comes through I should be able to figure out the best way to run both my Ethernet and HDMI cables under the condo from the den to the living room.

I’ve also gone ahead and purchased the new television I’ve been eagerly awaiting the release of: the Vizio VF552XVT. I was originally going to wait and see if I could pick one up at Costco, but at the last minute I found out about a “VIP” program that Vizio was running where in exchange for 6 weeks of filling out brief surveys on their new Internet-TV features I was able to receive a significant discount, free shipping, and a free sound system and Blu-Ray player at the end of the 6 weeks. It should arrive in the next week or so… I managed to squeeze in the day before the program ended, so I feel I was somewhat fortunate in being able to jump on that opportunity.

In much sadder news, my remaining grandmother (on my father’s side) fell terribly ill this past weekend, and had to go into the intensive-care unit. The entire family is currently in hurry-up-and-wait mode, and I’m preparing to have to hop on a plane to Toronto at a moment’s notice if her condition declines any further. At the moment the antibiotics appear to be slowly kicking in and she is improving gradually, though, and may even leave the ICU in the next couple of days if she continues to improve, although it will take her weeks to recover.

It’s definitely had me on edge these past couple of days, and was compounded today when I checked my mail and found a birthday card she sent me, presumably back in December. (I was glad the post office was able to successfully deliver it at all; there were a number of little mistakes she’d made in the addressing of it.) I haven’t opened it yet… I’m not a superstitious person by any stretch of the imagination, but the timing of it makes me anxious. Everyone in the family is stressed, of course, and Izzy’s recent passing is still fresh in our memories. I really hope she gets through this.

Dan.

Izzy

Monday, December 21st, 2009

Today I received news of the passing of Izzy, the cat I spent my teenage years growing up with. He made it to seventeen years old, and we first got him when I was thirteen, shortly after the death of Sundance. I decided in my bereft innocence that I wanted a replacement that looked just like him, and thus Izzy was chosen for his similar orange and white complexion.

Izzy turned out to be very little like Sundance. From kittenhood he was the grumpiest cat I’ve known, fiercely independent, extremely defensive and only ever playing or showing love on his own terms. He would attack frequently and heaven help you if you tried cradling him upside down (or holding him at all for more than brief periods of time). He was always such an old curmudgeon, and it was unusual that his body had to grow into his personality.

He was never the smartest cat, either. He used to charge at the other cat he saw in the mirror, for instance. It would sound like the galloping of a tiny horse as he got up speed and rammed that other cat with his head, causing the mirror to reverberate throughout the entire house. I think he grew out of that behaviour after a year or so, but I liked to joke that the damage was done by that point.

He was an indoor cat, and hated it. My parents used to tell me that indoor cats grew disinterested with the outside world, but I knew that was never the case for Izzy. He would constantly make mad dashes for freedom whenever a door was left open or if he felt he could claw his way through a screen (which he managed several times). Being the less-brainy type I described, though, he would always stop at the first flower he encountered in order to sniff it, giving us ample opportunity to retrieve him. There were only a few times he ever made it out unnoticed for any significant period of time, and he never went far. One evening he got out and the next morning my parents found him chasing after a terrified neighbourhood cat across our backyard.

We used to try taking him to my parents’ cottage, and that never went well: two hours of him sitting in his cat-carrier, meowing plaintively the entire trip. A lesser cat would have tired out or just given up five or ten minutes into the trip, but he would never stop for the entire two hour journey, constantly changing up his voice and pattern so we had no chance to grow accustomed to it.

He loved being at the cottage, though, exploring its nooks and crannies, and it was one of the places he would be most affectionate. I slept in the top half of a bunk-bed, and he would spend about ten minutes trying to figure out how to climb the ladder unsuccessfully until I finally helped him up, and he would sleep in the bed with me.

One story I like to tell is how I was napping on the couch at the cottage one time, when he suddenly jumped up on my chest and started nuzzling me. I was surprised by the unusual affection he was showing as I pulled myself out of my sleepy haze. I wrenched my eyes open only to have my gaze returned by a wide-eyed, terrified rodent that was barely centimetres from my face. Naturally I screamed like a little girl as my skeleton tried to leap outside the rest of my body, sending the two of them careening across the room. My dad heard this from the balcony where he was reading the newspaper, and as he opened the screen door all we heard was a furious galloping noise, and all we saw was a dark blur as the rodent darted out onto the porch and to freedom. My dad managed to slam the screen door shut just in the way of the cat that was hurtling after it in pursuit, separating the two.

After I went away to university I saw him a lot less, and my allergies made it difficult to spend huge amounts of time with him. He eventually moved in with my aunt, who took excellent care of him, and in his later years discovered other quirky things about him (such as one of his favourite foods being corn on the cob). I like to think he calmed down a lot in his elder years, although every time I visited he would be curmudgeonly as ever.

The last few months he apparently was having a harder time of things. My aunt had to feed him with a syringe and inject him with medications regularly. He seemed to improve recently and was even eating and enjoying food on his own, when he was hit with some kind of clot-related affliction that left him terribly weak and upset (my aunt thinks it was a stroke, but the vet isn’t sure). There was no reasonable choice other than to put him down and end his suffering at that point. I was woken up by the call from my parents this morning, and got the chance to talk to my aunt about it a little later on. It took a few hours for it to sink for me and I’ve been going back and forth between being shell-shocked and morose.

We are going to have him cremated, and bury his ashes up at the cottage, same as we did for Sundance over seventeen years ago. I like to think it’s where he would have chosen, if he could.

I knew about his declining health, and that it was unlikely I would get to see him before he died. I had still hoped he might make it through until March or so, when I have a wedding to attend on the east coast and might have been able to do a brief layover to see him in Toronto. I suppose it wasn’t meant to be, though. I am sad to have missed a final opportunity to see him, but seventeen years is a long life for any cat, and his was a good one, filled with people that loved and took care of him.

The brief time I visited back in 2008 and got to see him at the cottage, he chose this spot underneath an island table in the kitchen as the best location to keep an eye on foot traffic:

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… of course, his vigilance had its limits.

So long, Izzy. I will miss you.

Dan.

A rickety ride

Monday, September 28th, 2009

Today is Yom Kippur, one of the few Jewish holidays I observe to some degree, by fasting to atone for my sins. This is a good year for it, regrettably.

In the words of my good friend Richard, life is a sine wave, and the past couple of weeks have certainly been a rickety ride across its peaks and troughs. I’m happy to say that things have in the aggregate been quite positive and I’ve been far luckier than I’ve deserved, but there’s been a lot of sadness and hurt I’ve been responsible for, and some tough stuff I’ve had to come to terms with. Things are broken that I simply cannot fix, and it gnaws at me that I’m capable of causing such damage and be utterly helpless to make amends for it. I will continue to be there for them and hope for the opportunity to someday offer them some peace of mind, but I’ve no reason to expect they will ever be receptive to it.

If that wasn’t cryptic enough, there’s still a huge ream of stuff coming down the pipe I simply can’t talk about yet. It’s one of the reasons I don’t post to this blog very often lately… I’ve been thinking that it will be resolved any day now for over two months, and I can end with the secrecy. Frustration!

Cannibal opens on Friday, and we only have two or three rehearsals between then and now. I don’t know how ready I feel. I think the show will be okay for what it is… I’m actually mostly concerned about my recorder music, some of which I only received yesterday and I don’t know if I’ll have time to learn it well enough for the show. I’m still excited by the prospect of playing a recorder on stage for the first time since I was in elementary school, though.

My sleep has been mired by a cold I had last week… it was mercifully brief but has still left me more ragged than normal. I’ve started irrigating my nasal passages with a neti pot, which is something I’ve been meaning to try for years, as I know nasal irrigation has worked wonders for my dad. I think I’m starting to get some positive effects from it, but it’s tough to tell. Mostly I just constantly feel like I’ve come home from swimming.

Dan.

Into my life’s history

Tuesday, November 4th, 2008

Well, Rocky came to its bittersweet conclusion this past weekend. I had somehow talked myself into the responsibility of making gifts for everyone who had been helping out on the show, and this proved to be a fairly monumental task, as there were no less than 17 people helping out at every single performance, plus five others we wanted to suitably honour: the director, producer, stage manager, music director and costumer. My initial plan called for a cast photo to be taken, which would be turned into photo-greeting-cards that we could sign and distribute to everyone. I was then going to find five inexpensive collage-frames for the others and load them up with photos of the show.

I ordered the greeting cards online and they arrived on Wednesday, but were printed at about a quarter of the resolution of the original file I sent in and looked horrible, so without sufficient time to place another order I wound up spending an evening designing them myself, going to Kinko’s and getting them printed and cut there. Meanwhile I was unable to find suitable collage frames in the budget I’d requested from the cast, so at one person’s suggestion I undertook the task of making the collages myself and fitting them into generic 16×20 inch frames, which was of course a much larger project than I’d originally signed on for or imagined.

In addition to these, in a stroke of luck/genius I’d come across mad scientist alphabet blocks which seemed like a perfect cast gift, but in order to give everyone blocks with meaningful letters on them I would have to order several sets. In a quick correspondence with the business, however, I found out that not only for a small price increase per block I could select individual blocks, but for a slightly greater increase they would let me pick all six sides for each block, which meant I could custom-tailor a block for each cast member. So for a smaller price than ordering multiple sets I was able to get each cast member their own customized mad scientist alphabet block with letters that I found meaningful to them. Sweet.

On top of this, I wanted to give the cast members a framed cast photo, so I had to get that taken care of as well. So last week was pretty much spent embroiled in getting all that together, and my condo looks like an arts-and-crafts tornado ran through it as a result.

Emotions ran pretty high for closing weekend. All three shows had sold out early in the week, so we knew we’d have good audiences. It was a long run and a good run and of course the only alternative to ending it while still wanting to do more would be to end it once we were sick of it, so there’s no option but to grieve and move on. My only frustration was that after many months of pristine health that was nothing short of miraculous I finally succumbed to a cold on our closing weekend, which of course had to be when they decided to make a video recording of the show. Boo. Fortunately the cold hasn’t affected my throat much, but it hit my lung capacity pretty badly, which wreaked havoc on my solos. The various meds I put myself on also impacted my acting in general, I think. Oh well.

I’ve added some more photos of the production to my gallery, including a whole slew that were taken when we went to see the movie version at the Admiral Theatre, and a couple of the cast with our most famous guest narrator, United States Congressman Jim McDermott:

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Some newspaper came and snapped photos of the event as well, but I haven’t heard anything yet about the article.

As sad as I am to see Rocky pass on from my living world and into my life’s history, I finally made it back to an ensemble workshop at Unexpected yesterday and was startled at how much I missed my life there and doing improv. As much as I love doing scripted work, there is a naked honesty that improv provides that other forms of theatre cannot, and the people over there are so excellent that it pains me retroactively to have been removed from them for so long.

I suffered from the usual I’ve-been-away-I-sure-hope-I-remember-how-to-do-this syndrome, but I managed a couple of really decent scenes (and one spectacularly terrible one, but that’s how the improv cookie crumbles) and once I got into it and the feeling of it started flooding back to me, I was almost shaking from how much I missed doing it. I really look forward to sinking my teeth back in over there.

Dan.